A personal [VISION] from GOD and a challenge to you !!!!!!!!!

Tonight I find myself sitting here thinking on what God has shown me. and I have heard this. Ryan I have given you a personal vision of who,what and where I want in your life. And if you would just be still and listen to the things I am saying then this will go much easier. For the longest time now I have been struggling with these things. I know who, what and where. but I have allowed the crowd to block my personal vision out. you see its much easier to go with what the crowd says because in doing so you find when times get tough you will have some one or thing to blame. Just like the many men it the bible did. Adam blamed Eve. and she blamed the devil. Jacob allowed his wife to plan how God would give them a child. Pilot washed his hand though he knows Jesus was innocent.
They all did the same thing I feel I have done. take the easy way out and blame any one but me. God showed me these things for me to draw closer.But instead I screwed up I let the presser get to me! and made things easier to blame others. But God has a funny way of showing you things and giving second chances. That’s why tonight instead of being out with someone I am here listening to God. See God has already showed me who, so why bother with all that mess. And as far as people setting me up.... no more! I am choosing Gods way over the crowd's and my own insecurities in him and him alone do I trust. you see standing a lone some times is what it take to fully see the personal vision he has for you. That’s why the who, what and where are no longer a problem. He has to work in me so I know how to be the Leader and man he wanted me to be. so if this means breaking me in to a million little pieces again well so be it. But this is my vision form the lord and many will say I won’t make it, or that I am wrong. But I will follow this vision until god changes it or he says enough is enough. We can hang on to selfish way that are not Gods or we can let him break us and mold us until every piece fits just right. But I know one thing. if he’s breaking and molding me and I am having a tough time with my identity, well that tells me I am running in the right direction of this vision he has for me. That’s why I know at this very moment I am. Cause sitting here instead of meeting with my friends and the some one they thinks is right. I am listening to the personal vision. On who, what, and where.
My whole point in writing this is to challenge you. Be still. stay away from the crowds and let God’s vision for you consume you. And he will give you perfect direction with the who what and where in your life.

Thanks so much for taking time to listen to my heart

Ryan

Learning how to look up not back

people always tell me keep look up not back. but how to look up is the question? so i say learning what makes you look back will help you solve why your not looking up. someone once said to me.

“When we long for life without difficulties, remind me that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure”

what a Good word. the person who wrote this knew these words well is sound like. because they were able to write them down! me on the other hand, I tend to stick my foot so far in my mouth i wounder sometime if it's ever going to come out.
today i had lunch with a friend! it was great but i keep walking myself into that kinda thing. more than once today. Glad the friend is so forgiving cause i sounded like a big fat jerk!

Have you every just wanted a little break from every thing your going through. But I don't know how to get there. well God has be trying to show me through my friend and family for sometime. we over talk what God is saying sometimes. the biggest thing i am realizing is every thing in Gods word point's to one thing, obedience! like with Steven's obedience to preach though he was stoned to death. David need God to meet him in his disobedience. but then again, there was David being obedient to the holy spirit! God just wants us to totally be 100% beyond any doubt, know when he said it. so he will take care of it. but like most the men in the Bible they experienced the pain of disobedience to cry out to God. for what? To for give them and meet them right where they are at. it is my personal thought that in order to truly be 100% obedient. God must break you. he took Job, David,Saul,Ect. to a place of brokenness
to let them see no matter what life has in store. I am the very God who hung on your cross.took your shame. to let you know there is not pain or trial that you face, that Jesus has given you victory to over come. so just now i realized something if we go through life trying to side step every problem to please others, we will simply hate our self for it. you see Job was tested, David was broken,and Saul was humbled by being blinded. So what i am trying to say those men, like myself all needed those things to happen in order for god to truly use them.God never promised easy because there's never victory with out a fight. and something doesn't means nothing if its not worth fighting for. life is full of Uncertainness. But if we keep our eye on Jesus and our hearts humble ,and our words clear for him to work in and through us. Then like those men we will stand strong on the word of God and know he will take care of all of it.Amen 1Cor;10:13-14

with out a paddle

well Here goes noting. many tell me life is full of meanings. but lately i feel a bit lost in all the sound.which lead me to write this. about 5 years ago life was changing in so many way i never thought it would lead me to where i am today . I have many great friends and all.
But sometimes i feel like i am in a boat with no paddle. for many reasons i say this. because if you have ever been in a boat with no paddle or sail you find yourself drifting in not one direction. The water carries you which ever way it wants. you have no way of fighting back. To head in the direction you want so you just drift. it feels like all the things i have failed at in life have stolen my paddles. and now i am just drifting and head not in one direction. feeling alone at sea wait on hope (Jesus) to come along to help give me back the paddles. which lifes many failures have made me lose site of .
But i was talking with some one the other day about choices and i respect this person greatly in many way, for many reasons. But anyway the person said when trying to see clearly what God is trying to show you It might not get easier but you may feel more at peace the more God Tell you. it funny really how something we already know. it take a friends kindness to help us see what God has been saying all along. you may be drifting in that boat with no paddle. but God is the one who made the sea in which that boat floats.
tho you may feel all alone, God controls it all . even the simple things!!!

They call you how they see you so make sure what they see is what there suposed to see

So just the other day i am at work right and i clock in at 2:00pm the day it normal then at 4:00pm first break (15min) go by great.the day couldn't be any better. then came lunch i was sitting down when a man who i will call (coca cola's1 worker) came in the break room very loud so very nicely i ask the man can you quite down then he starts telling people what to do so i proceed to tell him he should not be doing this to the other hourly worker why they are eating so that started it! here we go!!!!! he starts yelling at me so i let it roll on an on an on.then i got feed up and told him to stop acting like a dumby. so now this is what took the cake, now he starts the faith bashing which had nothing to do with anything, but he took it there and which lead me to thinking was God testing my reaction did i react poor so even though every one laugh at me an said i was crazy to say sorry . all i could hear was God saying i have set you apart from these thing and call you to be my witness now go say sorry and i did because ya know i may be the only form of Jesus he sees so make sure they are seeing what they are suposed to see.(Jesus)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My thoughts on true love

Someone once told me Ryan you'll never find true love and at one point i started to believe that person. anyway I have found that statement so untrue because in life we face so many different things but i believe true love will find me i just have to be ready for a love i have never known . there are very few thing in life i find true but love is one. Jesus showed the best picture of it . but i also find this very true a person without forgiveness in there heart suffers a far greater thing than death an it is forever .people hardly understand me but in a nut shell i find myself waiting on a love that may not be real but there is always hope, because when ask why such a great guy like me is single i simply reply we ask Jesus to help us live are life but yet we won't let him in the love dept. of are lives so i say this when
God shows me the one i am to be with for ever she will have a sold out love for Jesus then she can truly love me the way God intends love to be far more mind blowing than we have ever seen or known.

the waters of life

life has been so crazy with the ups and downs. God has changed so many things in my life that i can't begin to explain how. he will on a day to day but i know one thing to be so true. Gods aloud me to read this book called my utmost for his highest and today's devotional touch my heart in a way i never would have thought. the book explains our lifes like a river most of the time unnoticed but touching every thing it comes in contact with. it is so amazing God changes how the way we see and feel when we die to our self's and pick are cross and follow just thing of the many people today and the next that you pass and just say nothing like the teller or the clerk or most of all a friend God never said the give was for you to have then hide it he wants us to share that no one would parish but have life ever lasting.

SO NOT THE WAY I MEANT IT

ya know the last few days have be hard for me because something was took so very wrong. an now i wish i could change things but God it the only one now who can make the persons involved realize that the way they took the way i was acting for something that it was not. i serve God and him alone do i trust to fix this problem. i guess being nice to people these days gets miss lead for something it's not i am very hurt by it but, prayed about it and God spoke to me and said this, my son your love for people is not a fight but it is worth fighting for cause they need to know the will of my father. so just like sand will shift like feeling but stand on an in my word and i will take you threw it an show myself in you .

thans for listening much love

Ryan