with out a paddle

well Here goes noting. many tell me life is full of meanings. but lately i feel a bit lost in all the sound.which lead me to write this. about 5 years ago life was changing in so many way i never thought it would lead me to where i am today . I have many great friends and all.
But sometimes i feel like i am in a boat with no paddle. for many reasons i say this. because if you have ever been in a boat with no paddle or sail you find yourself drifting in not one direction. The water carries you which ever way it wants. you have no way of fighting back. To head in the direction you want so you just drift. it feels like all the things i have failed at in life have stolen my paddles. and now i am just drifting and head not in one direction. feeling alone at sea wait on hope (Jesus) to come along to help give me back the paddles. which lifes many failures have made me lose site of .
But i was talking with some one the other day about choices and i respect this person greatly in many way, for many reasons. But anyway the person said when trying to see clearly what God is trying to show you It might not get easier but you may feel more at peace the more God Tell you. it funny really how something we already know. it take a friends kindness to help us see what God has been saying all along. you may be drifting in that boat with no paddle. but God is the one who made the sea in which that boat floats.
tho you may feel all alone, God controls it all . even the simple things!!!

They call you how they see you so make sure what they see is what there suposed to see

So just the other day i am at work right and i clock in at 2:00pm the day it normal then at 4:00pm first break (15min) go by great.the day couldn't be any better. then came lunch i was sitting down when a man who i will call (coca cola's1 worker) came in the break room very loud so very nicely i ask the man can you quite down then he starts telling people what to do so i proceed to tell him he should not be doing this to the other hourly worker why they are eating so that started it! here we go!!!!! he starts yelling at me so i let it roll on an on an on.then i got feed up and told him to stop acting like a dumby. so now this is what took the cake, now he starts the faith bashing which had nothing to do with anything, but he took it there and which lead me to thinking was God testing my reaction did i react poor so even though every one laugh at me an said i was crazy to say sorry . all i could hear was God saying i have set you apart from these thing and call you to be my witness now go say sorry and i did because ya know i may be the only form of Jesus he sees so make sure they are seeing what they are suposed to see.(Jesus)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My thoughts on true love

Someone once told me Ryan you'll never find true love and at one point i started to believe that person. anyway I have found that statement so untrue because in life we face so many different things but i believe true love will find me i just have to be ready for a love i have never known . there are very few thing in life i find true but love is one. Jesus showed the best picture of it . but i also find this very true a person without forgiveness in there heart suffers a far greater thing than death an it is forever .people hardly understand me but in a nut shell i find myself waiting on a love that may not be real but there is always hope, because when ask why such a great guy like me is single i simply reply we ask Jesus to help us live are life but yet we won't let him in the love dept. of are lives so i say this when
God shows me the one i am to be with for ever she will have a sold out love for Jesus then she can truly love me the way God intends love to be far more mind blowing than we have ever seen or known.

the waters of life

life has been so crazy with the ups and downs. God has changed so many things in my life that i can't begin to explain how. he will on a day to day but i know one thing to be so true. Gods aloud me to read this book called my utmost for his highest and today's devotional touch my heart in a way i never would have thought. the book explains our lifes like a river most of the time unnoticed but touching every thing it comes in contact with. it is so amazing God changes how the way we see and feel when we die to our self's and pick are cross and follow just thing of the many people today and the next that you pass and just say nothing like the teller or the clerk or most of all a friend God never said the give was for you to have then hide it he wants us to share that no one would parish but have life ever lasting.

SO NOT THE WAY I MEANT IT

ya know the last few days have be hard for me because something was took so very wrong. an now i wish i could change things but God it the only one now who can make the persons involved realize that the way they took the way i was acting for something that it was not. i serve God and him alone do i trust to fix this problem. i guess being nice to people these days gets miss lead for something it's not i am very hurt by it but, prayed about it and God spoke to me and said this, my son your love for people is not a fight but it is worth fighting for cause they need to know the will of my father. so just like sand will shift like feeling but stand on an in my word and i will take you threw it an show myself in you .

thans for listening much love

Ryan

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How Big God is

FLORIDA,LIDO KEY BEACH

so i finally got my 2nd vacation this year and it was much needed .well let me tell ya about it. i went to Florida and visited lido key, longboat key and Sarasota then Tampa on the way home . i have never in my life had such a great time in a different state but this one was not the same i was in awe. God is so big you never really think about it until you really see how small you really are .

so there i was floating in the ocean by Florida an by the way it was my First time in the ocean let me tell ya awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but any way i was just floating when i looked up and thought man would look at that here i am floating away in the middle of the ocean as giant of a thing it is an it still doesn't begin to explain how Big God is, but yet he made every thing great and small to reflect who he is so Big but yet so loving that he would send his son to die for me just so i can spend forever trying to show a small fraction of the love he show me. so any way in thinking that it made the top of my list of greatest vacation every oh and if you never seen a sun rise or set from a beach by the ocean it is a must do in life it will steal your words and breath . oh yeah the sand is amazing .