with out a paddle

well Here goes noting. many tell me life is full of meanings. but lately i feel a bit lost in all the sound.which lead me to write this. about 5 years ago life was changing in so many way i never thought it would lead me to where i am today . I have many great friends and all.
But sometimes i feel like i am in a boat with no paddle. for many reasons i say this. because if you have ever been in a boat with no paddle or sail you find yourself drifting in not one direction. The water carries you which ever way it wants. you have no way of fighting back. To head in the direction you want so you just drift. it feels like all the things i have failed at in life have stolen my paddles. and now i am just drifting and head not in one direction. feeling alone at sea wait on hope (Jesus) to come along to help give me back the paddles. which lifes many failures have made me lose site of .
But i was talking with some one the other day about choices and i respect this person greatly in many way, for many reasons. But anyway the person said when trying to see clearly what God is trying to show you It might not get easier but you may feel more at peace the more God Tell you. it funny really how something we already know. it take a friends kindness to help us see what God has been saying all along. you may be drifting in that boat with no paddle. but God is the one who made the sea in which that boat floats.
tho you may feel all alone, God controls it all . even the simple things!!!