A personal [VISION] from GOD and a challenge to you !!!!!!!!!

Tonight I find myself sitting here thinking on what God has shown me. and I have heard this. Ryan I have given you a personal vision of who,what and where I want in your life. And if you would just be still and listen to the things I am saying then this will go much easier. For the longest time now I have been struggling with these things. I know who, what and where. but I have allowed the crowd to block my personal vision out. you see its much easier to go with what the crowd says because in doing so you find when times get tough you will have some one or thing to blame. Just like the many men it the bible did. Adam blamed Eve. and she blamed the devil. Jacob allowed his wife to plan how God would give them a child. Pilot washed his hand though he knows Jesus was innocent.
They all did the same thing I feel I have done. take the easy way out and blame any one but me. God showed me these things for me to draw closer.But instead I screwed up I let the presser get to me! and made things easier to blame others. But God has a funny way of showing you things and giving second chances. That’s why tonight instead of being out with someone I am here listening to God. See God has already showed me who, so why bother with all that mess. And as far as people setting me up.... no more! I am choosing Gods way over the crowd's and my own insecurities in him and him alone do I trust. you see standing a lone some times is what it take to fully see the personal vision he has for you. That’s why the who, what and where are no longer a problem. He has to work in me so I know how to be the Leader and man he wanted me to be. so if this means breaking me in to a million little pieces again well so be it. But this is my vision form the lord and many will say I won’t make it, or that I am wrong. But I will follow this vision until god changes it or he says enough is enough. We can hang on to selfish way that are not Gods or we can let him break us and mold us until every piece fits just right. But I know one thing. if he’s breaking and molding me and I am having a tough time with my identity, well that tells me I am running in the right direction of this vision he has for me. That’s why I know at this very moment I am. Cause sitting here instead of meeting with my friends and the some one they thinks is right. I am listening to the personal vision. On who, what, and where.
My whole point in writing this is to challenge you. Be still. stay away from the crowds and let God’s vision for you consume you. And he will give you perfect direction with the who what and where in your life.

Thanks so much for taking time to listen to my heart

Ryan